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suddenly i realise everything...
my eyes finally OPEN...not BLIND anymore...
after that incident happen...only i realise...
suddenly i know that u untill now still dun care bout me..at all...
i waited for u so damn long....
when i din come to skull...u only know how to show BLACK FACE...
but never go and ask Mae Qie why i din come...
u dun even dare to ask....WHY???
izit so damn hard for u to OPEN ur MOUTH and ASK???
i thought i had hurt ur heart every single time...
but now i realise u hurt my heart too...
now u really hurt my heart deeply...VERY DEEP...









i cried last friday because of u...
u dont even know tat i cried...
the 1st time in my life i cry for a boy...
everything is because of u...
Mae Qie know that i cry because of u...
she's the one who comfort me...
no one else...
even my own family dun even know that i cried...
only her...my best friend....
i cried for very long tht nite...
wat u done to me....i will nevr ever FORGET...
i send u a message....
after u read...
we met in skull when u wanna go toilet...
i use behind stairs to go down...
when me and Mae Qie wanna go down...
u wanna go up...
and we met...u stopped and look at me for sec...
i din look at u...but i know it's u...
u will think that i HURT u alot...
but u got think that u HURT me too...
i dun know wheather u realise that u HURT me alot too...
i gave u alot of sign alrdy...
but u dun even care....
only Mae Qie worried bout me...
how about u...
i really dunno wat to do now...
in skull i tell myself not to LOOK at ur class....or u...
in skull i can smile....can laugh...
but at home...i cant be he same in skull...
i feel like crying at home...
sometimes in skull also...bt i cant cry...
everyone will ask me if i cry out...
so wat u wan me to do now...
i really cant stand this anymore...
the way u treat me...
i almost let u know how i felt bout u...
luckly i din tell u...
if i tell u..i will regreat in my life...FOREVER...
i regreated for knowing ur appearance...
i regreated for liking u...
i dunno why my eyes was so damn blind...